We cannot live without having at all memories but we can live without having identification, attachment with our past, replied the old shaman. Furthermore there are strong Tios-Ancestors and some memories that can even help us in our path. For example my own teacher, the black shaman, which is a very strong Tios-Ancestor is helping us a lot. And this gypsy lady you first recalled in your memory, oh! She is strong! From her a completely different state was coming! Yes, the young shaman agreed and became very impressed from the fact that the old man could read his thoughts so well. Now do the “Kamlanie”, go to Erlik and see what else pulls you there, in the underworld.
After getting his drum he started calling his spirit helpers while the objects on his uniform were beating each other making strong and strange metal sounds. He entered in the state of shamanic trans. Riding his drum he transformed in his totem animal, the deer from whose skin the drum was made and together with his spirit helpers he went down to the underworld. There he saw the Tios of people. Some were very big, mingled with the threads of attachments. Some others were like nets stuck on the shadows of memories, memories of things, people and events that already had happened. In this hell the basic helper of Erlik, Jayan Jayatsi, met him. He led him to some figures like small human beings that also were the Tios of different people. They looked like they were tied to something with ropes.
Do you see? These are the Tios of people. Some of them are close to death, others are sick. The Kut of people comes here to Erlik who created the Tios, the soul-memory and gave it to people in order to eat their Kut and feed his world. Here are the ropes of identification that you have to cut in order not to die but instead free yourself, become independent and reach immortality.
Suddenly in front of the young shaman appeared all the threads and ropes of his attachments and weaknesses. They were stuck in the past and were pulling him to Erlik leading him step by step to degradation, powerlessness and resignation. With all his power he pulled his Tios to unstuck it and separate it from its bondage. But his power was not enough to free the Tios. The ropes just moved a little and got a bit loose.
Hmmm, yes, yes… your power of detachment, your free will is not yet enough to break all the bondage together, Jayan said to Fishbone. You need to cut them one by one. I see you do not have attachment with needing to have a career or kids and with your relatives. This is already pretty much.
With these words the apprentice woke up in the tent. He was again with the old shaman
Now you know what makes you grow old and die? Asked the old shaman
He answered that he had understood while he was trying to take of the shamanic uniform and recover from the state of trance.
Drink the root, said the shaman giving to him the drink. The golden root grows only on the mountains and the mountains have connection to the upper world. On the tops of mountains there is a lot of power concentrated that enters the root and through the drink to you.
After drinking this bitter and strange drink the young apprentice made an ugly face.
What else can give to us more of the power of Kut? He asked
The old man put aside the bottle with the golden root and remained silent for a while.
Many things can give to us the Kut and many more can take it away. Good, healthy food give us vital power. Kut can be gained too by going after your goals with vigor and determination and by cultivating inside of you the state of inner fire, meaning being positive, active and intense in your expression of life. Furthermore, vital power is being generated by having big dreams, goals and aspirations and by following your life’s passions and purpose. Fear and guilt, procrastination, inner suppression, negligence, superficiality, laziness and wastefulness kill your Kut.
While talking to the old shaman, the young man felt an unusual tension growing inside of him. His eyes started to glow and he was filled up with a great quantity of energy. He suddenly wanted to shout, laugh with no reason and start doing craziness.
The power of the golden root entered you, said the shaman. Now is impossible for you to sit down. You must move. Go in the forest to cut wood.
He went in the forest and did this job with great ease. A fire was burning his solar plexus, the place where the Kut lives, although he was out in the cold weather. He was running inside the forest, we has laughing he was doing craziness. In the end he took off his clothes and took a bath inside the thick snow. Thoughts about the future or the past did not exist in him at all. There was only one thing, the sensation and feeling that he is filled with power. When he returned to the tent he was a bit calmer. He took again his clothes off and sat next to the fire.
Now journey to the future, to Ulgen, said the shaman. See and create your future filling it up with your energy and power in order for the events that you wish to be manifested more quickly. to be continued.....